take it back

I can't focus.

I can't focus today, but I couldn't focus yesterday or the day/week/year before that either. I realize that I normally focus in short bursts, but this is just annoying.

on top of this, I feel like I was floating along for a little while, doing good things and doing bad things, and I'm now at this culminating point where the next few decisions I make will tip me one way or the other. the good things have added into me having a delightfully silly, supportive, and comforting group of friends. the bad things have resulted in chronic pain, depression, and a few strained relationships.

I hate the internet.

I am reconsidering my life-list.

I need some hot chocolate.