this particular blog is dedicated to katie crank. in fact, I may go so far as to say that the entire reason I am even considering keeping an electronically written record of my life is due to crankster. and so, in the spirit of the person who makes me laugh, question, think, and crave for more conversation...
I am a list-maker: bullet points and strikethroughs, checkboxes and checks are as essential to my daily lifestyle as water and sleep. this, however, is the most important list I've ever made, because it how I plan to make decisions. it's how I plan to remember myself when I get too wrapped up in life, how I'll decide what comes next, and how I'll justify all of those idiosyncratic things I do that others often describe as impulsive or vagabond.
this is my lifelist. and though I sometimes get depressed enough that I think I'd rather give up, I commit myself to lists, and therefore will not be able to give up until checks and strikethroughs are properly chicken-scratched all over my life's 3x5 card.
- write something that people will re-read
- write at least one real letter/piece of mail per week
- purchase and use a working typewriter
- invest real time in becoming a more focused artist
- re-learn french, then actually use it
- drink coffee that I truly like on a daily basis
- live near a large body of water
- maintain multiple houseplants
- become a better golfer
- own a sewing machine, make/tailor my own clothes
- meet and hug bill murray
- wear out a pair of birkenstocks
- compost successfully
- fly somewhere at least once a year just for me
- get a tattoo... or two...
- learn to fix a bike (instead of pretending)
- road-trip purposefully through each of the lower 48
- start a non-profit, or two, or more
- get my phd; use it to benefit others through actions, teaching and learning
- become a better swimmer, and maybe less afraid of deep water
- write my own cookbook of gluten-free veg*n recipes
- get married in vegas, or somewhere equally known for spontaneity
- stay connected to people who believe in me and vice versa
- remember to simply listen to other people
- fall in love with the people right in front of me, wherever I am
- make things better...
though that last point seems vague, it's the most important thing I say to myself every fucking day. it is the absolute base for every decision I've made in the last 10 months, for the conversation katie and I had to start our lists, and for all of my future actions. the simple irony of it, too, is that any effort to make things better automatically precludes my giving up on life. afterall, only life will decide when I've made enough things better, n'est-ce pas?
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